Perception

I wanted to take some time to reflect before posting any type of update. We all know I talk about my faith and how I am only here today because of it. I often get discouraged, especially if John is "Debbie downer" for the night. I start to lose faith and question things.

That's exactly how he was last Saturday. I tried my best to cheer him up and "preach" to him but he wasn't listening. Our visit however was different.

I saw him Sunday in which I knew it would be rough. I've gotten a picture at every visit but this visit he declined. I kind of knew he would have but was hopeful he would take one with me. I didn't push the issue as I already prepared myself for the "no".

He was slightly more talkative. He looked around the room with his dazed and confused look, but he engaged in conversation. We mainly discussed his case and next steps. He asked about social media, and people commenting in which I didn't have anything bad to report.

I explained to him that it was 40/40/20. Some in favor of him, while the other 40 were friends and family of the other party. The 20% came from people around the Country in favor of him, amazed his daughter lied the way she did. Utterly disgusted with the wife.

I've tried not to interact on social media or respond to the negative comments but gosh darn the devil got me.

Most of the comments were from other family members, still grieving the loss of their loved one. I ignored most of them, as I'm sure I'd feel the same way if I were in their shoes. There was one that struck a nerve and I had to respond. I went back and fourth until I realized "I'm better than this". My last response included an apology as well as "her hands have blood on them too". Referring to the female involved.

I then get a private message. When I got the notification I said "oh boy here we go". I wasn't going to open it. I let it sit for awhile and then curiosity got the cat. I caved and opened it. I spent a majority of that day talking back and fourth with this family member. I provided proof of why I feel this was a set-up, proof of why she won't sign divorce papers, proof that she caused this whole thing. To my surprise, the lady I was conversing with, already knew.

Her words "I knew the day it happened she had something to do with it". From the few interactions she's had with "M" she could already read her. Her suspicion was sealed when I sent her the proof of "M" being motivated by money. How "D" was going to leave her a few weeks before. How her daughter spoke about "D", and how "M" was on the porch the whole time. The whole time!

This woman continued to tell me that both families are closer than we know, and that she's lost a lot of friendships due to the situation. My heart broke for her as one of those friendships were a 15+ relationship. Losing a friend you've had half your life due to different beliefs is wild to me. Yet, I can appreciate the loyalty to both sides.

What truly makes this situation a tragedy, is the fact that the ONE person responsible gets to go about her life worry free. She can continue to use, manipulate, steal, and cheat without anyone being the wiser. You think these two men were her only victims?

Timothy 1:7. For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity but of power, love, and self-discipline.