Mahoning County

John was instantly brough to the MCJ and placed in holding. I found it extremely odd that 5 hours after the guilty verdict he was booked into the jail. I checked the website like it was my job that day/night but he never came up.

A friend of his contacted me and wanted to put money on his books, I didn't have a clue how to do that but he did. I met him at the jail and we added $200 to his account. I came home and checked the roster again, and nothing. I went to bed that night knowing something happened but figured someone would have called his family.

I woke up that morning and received a text that said "are you here". My response back was "is he down there". The individual responded letting me know he was brought in, but didn't know why. I begged them to find out and let me know ASAP, but because I'm a crazy RED head I decided to get dressed and go down to the hospital myself.

I walked up to the front desk and said "I'm sure you can't tell me anything but I am asking you to see if I can go back and see John M. She looked at me with the "oh sh!t" look and walked back to the emergency room. She came back a minute later and said "nope they won't let you". Another nurse followed her (male nurse) and said "you aren't even supposed to know he's here". I looked at him and said "well I do" and walked away.

I called another friend I knew in the hospital who worked in the ED. It is extremelly unethical of me to ask for favors but I was desperate. I explained to her the situation and said "I just want to know if he's okay". She called me and said "I don't know much but he is alert". Ok, perfect. I'l go home and wait. I can't remember who I called on my way home, but by the time I hit the driveway the news came out with "murderer in the hospital with an attempted suicide, possible OD".

My phone is non-stop blowing up. "Did you know", "what happened", "how is he". Well WHAT in the actual FLIP my peeps, I have the same amount of information as ya'll. Yet at this point I am livid that NO ONE in the family got a call letting us know he was in the hospital, we had to find out from the media first. Huge mistake!

We made a few calls to the warden of MCJ and of course were fed the "hipaa" BS. I am trying to be as polite and respectful as I possibly can to the warden, while secretly doing some sketchy stuff. I am a devious little ginger when I need to be. I let things go the first day as my contact in the hospital said he was alert and talking. He was refusing treatment but he was alert.

Day two roles around and I called the MCJ for an update. Once again we are fed the hipaa BS and were told "he's okay". I ended up reaching out to my friend to confirm, and I was told he was moved to the ICU and on a vent. I'm sorry, what? He was just alert and talking the day before, now he's on a vent? My nerves are shot at this point and the rumors are flying. First we heard an OD, then we overheard a deputy at the court house talking saying "we didn't know he had heart problems it was a heart-attack".

I still have no clue what happened except what the MEDIA wants you to believe. The first article came out "murder OD in holding". The comments were absolutely disgusting and it was that moment I realized we were among evil people. No joke, there are hateful, evil people in the world and for some reason most of them lived in the YO.

Day three and still no answers on how he is or what truly happened. I was sitting at home, once again making myself sick with the "unknown". I was scrolling through his phone looking at old pictures and listening to my voicemails I left him. I came across his camera app and went back to certain days to watch him cooking in the kitchen, or kissing me on the forhead. The light bulb went off, I had access to his stuff!

I see he is critical and on a ventilator, unresponsive. I must have google searched every diagnosis and lap results. Nothing good ever comes out of google searching medical things. I am calling my nurse friends to ask them what "xyz" means, and I am still not grasping the seriousness of his condition. I quit looking and started praying. I prayed every second of every day.

I called the MCJ every day and left messages (the return calls were prompt). I even drove down to the MCJ so I could introduce myself to the warden, so he knew exactly who I was. How did this happen? If this was an OD, how TF did he get the drugs in the jail? Was he searched, did you know? Nothing made sense, and once again things weren't adding up.

John spent 3 days in ICU unresponsive, when I saw that he woke up, I continued to pray. I reached out to all of my people and begged them to do the same. I contacted local churches and pastors I knew to have him added to every pray chain in Ohio. I reached out to my support groups on facebook and asked for prayers. I begged every one I could think of to pray for him, even the non-believers.

John spent a total of 8 day in the hospital before returning to MCJ, in which he went into isolation for the next 48 days. We called the jail every day asking for updates, and we got the bare minimum. It wasn't until a friend of mind told me "they can't keep him locked up 24 hours out of the day, they have to give him ONE hour each day for "rec". Hmm, really? I don't think my fingers have ever typed so fast on the phone.

I called the jail again and asked for the warden. I asked him for visits and phone calls and he said "I don't see it being a problem but I have to talk to medical if I can approve it can you get down here today". Sure can, let me know and i'll be down. He called me back 20 minutes later and set it up for 3:30p. With an hour notice it was difficult for his son to make it from work to the jail, so I went.

He looked absolutely horrible, heartwrenching. He looked thin and hairy, but was thankful to see a familiar face. It was a short 30 minute visit and he spent a majority of it sobbing. I understood why and his pain, but there was nothing I could do except support.

We got to visit three times before he was scheduled for sentencing, each time he looked more frail than the last. You could see it in his eyes that he was losing hope. I can't even explain how he looked but it's an imagine that is embedded in my mind. We weren't given any visits the week of sentencing, but for sure thought we'd be able to see him after.

Once again, John had a court room full of supporters for sentencing. Each one of us patiently awaiting to hear his fate. They brought him out in his orange jumpsuit, shackles, and a beard that was unkept and tangled. He had tears running down his face, he looked around in the court room to find familar faces but the look in his eyes looked "empty". He turned to us one time and it wasn't him. It wasn't my JM, it was almost as if his mind was completely gone and his body was here.

I instantly start crying (I know, I'm a baby at this point). A deputy walks over and hands me tissues. The first victim's impact statement was written by someone else and read by a family member. The "loved" one of the victim didn't have the courage to show her face at sentencing, which was odd to me. The first sentence had me cracking up. No lie, I whispered to the person sitting next to me and said "is this legit". That person said the same thing before letting out a cackle. I continued to listen and the further in it got, the more relieved I was. There wasn't an individual in the court room that believed a word of her statement, not one. It was pitiful to say the least.

We heard all the statements and waited for the Judge to nail him at sentencing. John is sobbing, the Judge says "18-life". Okay, we were expecting that but how. How do you hand someone such a ridiculous sentence. No criminal history, no past violence, and clearly not a malicious shooting. No intent, and he gets 18? What a joke. Literally, a joke. I left the court room in disgust. We have definitely been failed, like many others.

Do any of you follow the news? Two months ago WKBN posted an article (not that anything they post is accurate) about a youngstown man pleading guilty to a double homicide. This man intentionally killed TWO individuals and got sentenced to 15-life. He'll be out in 10, and here I am again wondering how my JM got 18-life when he walked into an ambush!

Last night I discovered a few different things that are major, MAJOR. Yet I am so confused on how it was missed during trial? For those of you who are friends with me on tiktok, I posted a video earlier today and I encourage everyone to stay tuned!

Keep following, I'm not joking when I tell you this is like a life time movie, this doesn't happen to normal, every day people.

Prepare to be "mind blown".