I've been slacking with being obedient. I read the bible and say my prayers at night, but I've been missing church more than I'd like. My prayers at night are the same, except I might add in whatever I was struggling with that day.
I am constantly asking God for a sign and to guide me. "Am I doing enough, what do I need to focus on".
While he has given me a few signs I haven't received many regarding John's case, or so I thought. I've had some pretty wild dreams, but none I can remember. I've been waking up saying "I know I had a dream, but I can't remember what it was".
For some reason this last week John's dashcam footage has weighed heavy on my heart. I haven't watched it since July, after discovering evidence that was missed and not used during trial. Utterly disgusted, I put it away hoping to never have to see it again.
Yet this week after thinking about it non-stop I decided to watch it again. Of course, I spent every night this week zooming in, slowing it down, and pausing when I see something abnormal.
Of course, I find other discrepancies. I'm not even sure I was surprised finding other stuff, more baffled as to how everything got missed. The next day, as I am driving, I remember talking to God and asking him for a "calm collected day". The dashcam comes up again, and I sat at a red light chuckling at how oblivious I truly am.
That was God's sign. I went months without thinking about the dashcam or reviewing it. Now all of a sudden it weighs heavy on my heart. Like someone or something kept whispering "watch the video watch the video focus". Honest to GOD that's how it happened.
We often ask God for a lot. I, especially, but only when my life was in turmoil. Never when things were going well. God has kept that video on my mind for a reason. A reason I will explain later in the month.
I sent about 40 letters last month to forensic experts in the area, and some outside of Ohio. I wasn't expecting to hear from anyone, if I can just get a few people to look at my website, and a few interested in his case, then goal has been complete.
A few weeks ago, I received a text from one of the forensic experts I sent a letter to. This office is in Texas, but he was willing to look over the evidence used at trial. In my letter I said, "if you are interested in helping, please reach out to...." and left our Attorney's contact information.
The next week I called our Attorney to ask some questions and spoke with the secretary. I left my questions and concerns with her to forward to the Attorney, but then said, "wait this one is important". I explained to her about the forensic expert, and asked if I could contact them to get started. She said, "oh yeah they called here but I was waiting to talk to the Attorney". Whoa, what? They're interested, interested!
Luckily, we were able to get the information we needed but will keep them in mind if John is given a new trial. Keep praying lovers, keep advocating, keep sharing his story.
February is going to be a wild month, filled with many different emotions. Make sure you follow on TikTok as a lot of my work is summarized in a video.
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